Talked to M for about 5 hours this morning, just one of those easy going, productive convos. I know I come on here and vent alot about him. Doesn’t seem like I have anything good to say. Things have been tough throughout the years, but … Continue reading Just A Mushy Love Post

It’s raining right now, I think that is the most comforting sound. Well, maybe second to your person breathing as they sleep next to you. I miss waking up and listening to someone breath next to me.. especially on mornings such as this. Taking the … Continue reading Just Another Day, But Thankful For It

It’s definitely been interesting the last couple days. I received a call from M. What kills me is that fight I’ve been distraught over.. he doesn’t even remember. At this point, I’ve reached a level of peacefulness about everything and maybe that sounds like I’m … Continue reading Fast Forward To Tomorrow Please

Woke up to snow this morning, it’s been snowing off and on pretty much all weekend. Where I live, that is not common, at all! I took a video of course, I also woke up to videos and pictures of snow from friends. They know … Continue reading Cozy Mornings

It’s been a bit chilly here the last couple of days. I prefer colder weather, but let me clarify that. I prefer it as long as I don’t have to be out in it, ever. I don’t need an excuse to drink more hot drinks … Continue reading A Few Early Morning Musings

I’ve spent my life being.. somewhat messy. I always know where everything is. Ok, most of the time I do lol. I love watching YouTube clean with me/organizing videos and think maybe someday I’ll get the motivation to do that. I think I’ve officially entered … Continue reading Suzy Homemaker? I Prefer Domestic Goddess

Feeling so much better today, took the necessary time to “be one with myself” and the clarity I gained is appreciated. Love and light, right? So small thing, I finally paid for a year on this blog, free domain and spruced up the site a … Continue reading Just Give Me What I Crave

I spoke with my friend Liam this morning, we talked about closure. How there will be things I’ll never know. I’ll doubt everything about M and continue to punish myself. I have to let this go, I fucked up as well and I take responsibility … Continue reading Letting It All Go, Eventually

I’m emotionally overwhelmed right now and I’ve allowed myself to feel my emotions, to listen to them. Honestly though, I don’t want to put in the work. Opening myself up more comes with consequences, I am vastly under prepared. This is different from the small … Continue reading And Here’s Another Lesson