I seriously don’t get how people say they’re bored… I’ve been home all day for years and yet to have the time to do all I want/need! So, I’m taking some time to write a little, not much to say but feel like I should.

I received a message from the oldest today, he finally landed a job. I knew once he got out of this town he’d find one. He’s still doing college, doing well in the new house and I’m both happy and proud. I never doubted him and glad he never doubted himself. The youngest is still hanging in there, he calls just to talk and ramble but I love it. He’s very anxious to move out, hopefully I’ll be in a better position to help him out soon.

Working a little here and there, I’m not charging anyone but some do still pay. I’m happy I can still help in some ways. I thought being an introvert would make all this easy but I forgot people would be around all the time. It’s draining, my anxiety is always on high and I’m starting to feel very depressed.

M messaged on Mon but I didn’t see the text until Wed. I replied but haven’t heard anything back. I probably won’t… I did pray for something, even if it was a one time thing. God delivered, so I’m grateful for that. I’ve spent alot of time praying for him and his family. I hope things are better, I wish we could find a way to still stay in touch, but I feel like he’s moved on and finds me nothing but an evil distraction.. le sigh

Been less than keto the past few weeks and it shows lol. Back on track starting today, shouldn’t be difficult and I’m not beating myself up over it. Other than that, things are fine. Just living day to day, enjoying friendships and praying things fall into place. Not just with me but with the world…

Hoping anyone who reads this is doing ok and hanging in there